The desire to lose weight and the motivation it takes is different for everyone, and most people have more than one reason to decrease that number on the scale. Being healthier and looking better are probably two of the most common reasons to wanting to reduce our mass, and, while those are two of my biggest reasons for wanting to lose weight, they aren’t my only reasons. In fact, I have a wide array of reasons to drop some poundage and dresses are high on that list of reasons.
I want to wear dresses without pulling and tugging at them because I feel self conscious in them. I want to wear dresses without worrying about them looking odd and out of place because of my fat body. I want to wear pretty dresses, flowy dresses, short dresses, girly dresses and every other type of dress out there. I want to feel confident and pretty in dresses.
I even have a few dresses that I purchased at thrift stores that I am looking forward to wearing. Now, I’m not crazy, I didn’t purchase articles of clothing that don’t fit. These dresses actually do fit, but I would feel more comfortable in them after losing some weight. And since I feel so self conscious in them, I refuse to wear them. But I love them and wish I could slip them on right now and parade around in them. But I won’t, I can’t without feeling like a complete idiot.
When I wear dresses or something other than jeans and a t-shirt, I feel as though everyone is staring and thinking how I shouldn’t wear something like that. I know, I know, more than likely no one is thinking much of anything about me, I am rather forgettable after all, but I can’t shake the feeling that people are judging me because a fat girl shouldn’t wear anything pretty and should just stick to jeans and a shirt.